Homework for the Overactive Brain

Today's Quote--"Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me..."

Thursday, April 28, 2005

 

Sounds about right for my capstone. Well, I'm doing much better now. I'm hoping to have my second draft done tomorrow, but it's a little iffy. I finished reading a bunch of new articles that I hope will somehow strengthen my argument enough that Dr. Brickwall won't shoot me outta the sky again. I may yet graduate. Maybe. It's funny how easily my self-confidence is erroded. Ah well, that's why I challenge myself. *yeah, by doing stupid s*** like asking Dr. Brickwall to be my mentor!*

Just had some time and read everyone's blogs. It's been awhile...I need to pay better attention to my friends. Ah, well...I'm just a lazy person by nature. I hope ya'll kick my ass and make me keep in touch with ya'll. It's one of my goals for the year, but who knows.

I love my Yahoo music station, by the way. I also love anime. A wee bit too much. I asked myself if Ed told me I had to choose between him and anime, what would I choose. The answer was Ed, of course, but it took a minute or two. Oy.

Can you believe we're almost done? It seems like only yesterday we started this insanity. It felt like it would never end. Although, thinking about it realistically, it never will. We will forever be the guniea pigs of SUA, although now it'll all be alumni stuff. Yep, the future reputation of the school will be based upon what we do after we graduate...No pressure or anything. I love how our check-out date is two days after graduation..."Thanks for a great four years, we're really proud of all you've accomplished, here's your diploma...Now...GET OUT!" LOL Gotta love it.

I'm trapped between wanting it all to be done with (i.e. capstone) and wanting it to stay this way (i.e. friends, campus, good stuff). What will my life look like two weeks after graduation? A month? Two months? Six months when I have to start paying my loans? A year? Will I get a job? Will I get into Graduate School? Will I graduate from there too? Will I get a teaching job after that? Will I get an apartment? Can I afford a car? Will Ed and I ever get married? *sigh* Too many questions, and no answers.

Such is life.

So, anyway, in this mad dash to the finish line, I feel like I'm floating and I can't pay attention. I'm spaced out and feeling terrified at odd moments for no reason. Maybe it's just that big "REAL WORLD" hanging over my head, or something. Anyway...I'm alive and that's all that really matters.

Yeah, I've had some good warm fuzzy feelings recently too. Must be all those D's I'm managing to get in. But I won't bore you with good news. ;)

Anyone else think that Friday the Thirteenth is just too perfect as the due date for our Crapstones? It makes me want to cackle, or laugh hysterically...like they do in straight-jackets. Wait...capstone in general makes me want to roll my eyes, laugh hysterically, and foam at the mouth. Hee hee. Okay...sorta.

My choice for dean? Jon. If not, then Dr. Brickwall. Who do I think will get it? Now there's the question for the ages. You think we'll find out before we graduate? Naw, me neither.

Okay, okay. This post is now officially too long. That's what happens when Ed passes out at 10:45 and I have no access to anime. I just ramble. :) But that's why ya'll love me, I never make sense. Unfortunately that seems to be true in my capstone too...*sigh* Ah well, off to bed and no more worries!

GL 11:31 PM