Homework for the Overactive Brain

Today's Quote--"Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me..."

Wednesday, January 21, 2004

 

Aside from the beautiful example of true American English...The hard times help you find yourself, because no one else can tell you who you are. Is this a hard time? No, just thinking. I think Study Abroad helped me find a little bit more of myself. Someday I'll have collected all these parts and will know who I am. But for now, still searching.

Anyway, discovered that true college attitude. Question everything. Develope a strong sense of self, and self-responsibility. Never be afraid to express my thoughts, to be niaeve, to challenge. It's a rather careless attitude sometimes, I think, but good, freeing. In writing class today I simply told it how it was in my view. So it was negative, harsh, and rather idealistic, but I felt so good after class. Even though it was still painfully boring, by just saying how I felt, I think I made it worth while for me. Instead of just being quiet and pissed, I was able to just let it out and think! Not just fume. I think this may be a break through for me...or something. Or just PMS. Either way, I'm glad I realized that even if it seems rediculous, or that there isn't anything to be done, my opinions still matter and should still be heard, at the appropriate times. Hey, she asked for it!

Yeah, so that was good today. Japanese class wasn't too bad. Our reading last night got us to page 4. Out of 25. So yes, I wasn't alone with the "It's too hard!" feelings. Of course we still have more readings from the same author, but hey, I'll keep trying! Just because I don't get it doesn't mean I'm going to give up that quick...I like Japanese too much. Or something. The guy's ideas sound interesting, once I get them translated into simpler Japanese...it's just the Kanji and excessively difficult kotoba...grrr, where's my English?!...words? Vocabulary...that'd be it. Yeah, so must do readings.

Cramps aren't too bad today...but I want my knee to stop hurting!!! GRRRRR! I know I've been trying not to complain about it, so most people don't know that I'm wandering around saying OW! in my head every other step and that I've been on anti-inflamitories for the past three weeks and I'm wandering around with a knee brace and it still hurts. Grrr. And it's only been the past 3 weeks on pain killers...before that it hurt for about, oh, let's say 2 months! Strained from so much walking/stairs in Japan, or whatever. I don't know. I think my body just wanted to get back at me for something. What, I dunno, but something. And anyway, it's starting to make me mad because I can't dance, I can't exercise, and really, walking kinda hurts too. Hell, sitting hurts! Hermph. I don't like this whole 'near-invilid' thing...And of course, since I have to go to class and well, you know, use my knee nearly every part of every day, it's not healing. Or resting, or whatever it is that it needs to do. Bleh. And I'm not complaining about it to everyone, because I know then I would get a, "so, how's the knee today?" response...to which I'd have to say, "it hurts" everyday. Besides, no one really wants to hear me say my knee hurts everyday. I don't want to hear me say that everyday. They took X-rays...nothing broken/cracked/fractured, or whatever, but it still hurts. Did I already mention that? Yes? Okay. So, if it doesn't knock it off soon...say Friday, I'm going to Nurse Jackie. I hate the woman, but what can you do when you have no transportation? So yeah, either Friday or Monday I'll go visit her and see what she suggests. My doctor in Spokane said to do PT if it still hurt after 10 days on anti-inflamitories...well, obviously...it's been past 10 days. But where would I go for PT down here? And more importantly, how would I get there? *sigh* It never ends.

So...now that you all know way too much...Um, I have not much else to say. I'm wondering about the job with AO. Technically I'm working for BF now too...yes, getting paid for it. But it's through SOCCO, not SUA, so I don't think that precludes me from getting a job with SUA. Besides, SOCCO job is about 4 hours a week, or less, and AO job would be about 10 hours a week, so that'd be just about groovy. Fine. Where did groovy come from? Oy, yes, I am a hippy-child. *rolls eyes* And on top of that I'm the newest super-star writer for The Pearl...which means I get all the articles no one else wants to write, but everyone agrees needs to be written. Which is fine with me, I don't mind whipping things out at the last minute...I think maybe not being section editor is a good thing for me right now...though who knows what'll happen in the next two weeks? ;) Either way, I think I'm rather in sinc with the universe at the moment, so I know that whatever happens, it's the best bet for me.

Hey ED, I had a dream last night that I was dating Justin Timberlake. I know he's one of your hubbys, but...yeah, it was weird. He just showed up in Spokane and we ran into each other...I of course don't think he's the hottest guy on the planet, and I don't care for his music, either, so apparently that was attractive. *shrug* Anyway, he thought it was cool I didn't go all wacky and screaming at him like so many other girls. It was a nice dream...except that I don't know why I dreamt about him...or why we were dating...Loneliness? Herm. Another one of those eternal problems. But, hey, I know better than to care too much about that. Well, consciously at least. ;)

Anyway, I should probably go do something resembling homework...there's always a lot to do after all. I miss you all...yes Keith...you too. :D But hey, jabbering at you like this is almost like being with you. ;)

GL 4:31 PM