Homework for the Overactive Brain

Today's Quote--"Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me..."

Sunday, February 16, 2003

 

Today's Quote--"Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated."--Alphonse de Lamartine
Woke up disturbed today. Had two dreams that weren't quite nightmares, but left me feeling frightened, disturbed, and queasy. The first was bad not in content, but that it's something I wanted so badly, that I'm dreaming random people in it and that it's only a dream, but so realistic. A cruel reminder. The second was horrible in the feelings I went through, that I woke up still having, and the image of that body that won't go away, the greusomeness of it throwing me out of wack. Just thinking about it has made my stomach turn into a tight knot. *shudder* Worse yet was that the two were connected, one right after the other, so real, too real. Going from that joy of being where I wanted to be to seeing that sight, just...*shudder* *shudder* ahhhhh....*shudder* It was awful. I'm not sure I'll be able to eat for the rest of the day. Where did my mind come up with that image? How? It was so real. *shudder* must stop thinking about it.

Anyway, I feel crummy, so I'm going to sleep most of the day away. Hope that'll make it better (and that I'll have better dreams to chase away the others). Not too much homework to do for tomorrow, so I'm not worried about that. Haven't talked with Mom in 2 days...wow. I miss home. A lot. I just want to go home for a few hours, say hello to my parents and my cats, enjoy my house for a little bit, then come back. That's all. Why is that so much to ask?

GL 3:37 PM