Homework for the Overactive Brain

Today's Quote--"Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me..."

Saturday, November 02, 2002

 

So, I finished the book DJ gave me...it was really good, but now it's done and I'm sad. I enjoyed having a novel to read, I'd forgotten how much I enjoy being sucked into another world like that. I suppose that means I should start reading the HR again, I need that positive reinforcement for my studying...but then I always end up wanting to read rather than study. *sigh* Figures. Anyway...

Went out today, how refreshing. The weather is beautiful, windy, sunny, and cool...sometimes even cold, though nothing can compare to the freezing cold at home right now! I'm definately always homesick, I can tell. Even when things are so busy it seems like I couldn't possibly be distracted by thoughts of home, they pop up. I've even experienced that feeling I used to get at home in the fall, that feeling of living a particular story, of being transported to another dimension where things are so different. Speaking of that story, I think I'm going to waste some of my time this evening looking over it and doing some editing...oh yes, editing, reminds me, newspaper. Ack. Such a slacker, I haven't done anything...and I keep forgetting to ask B about what he wants in the paper...Grrrr. My mind seems so slippery lately...I can't hardly remember anything. And my Japanese midterm just proved it to me...oy. *sigh* My mind is like a steel sieve. Never rusts, always strains. Ha, ha, ha. Except it's not funny when I'm working on a test. ;)

I have many responsibilites I have to see to, but I'd rather go watch a movie, read a book, or sleep. Heck...I'd rather do homework than some things I should be doing. They're not that bad, not that hard, but I'm having a hard time forcing myself to do them...*sigh* Well, I'll work on it. Playing next to F today made me feel inadequet. Again. Being on 1st flute is rather overwhelming for me as well. I just can't hit all those notes that fast...hell, I can't even play the entire second part of the nutcracker. I hit most of the notes. I do a good job of faking the rest. But today H was late and all anyone could hear was me. And I sucked. Not really bad, but I felt like everyone was disappointed and must have been thinking what a cruddy second player they have...of course the rational me knows that no one was thinking any such thing, but I was thinking it. So...instead of berating myself, I want to practice and get better...I just have to make time...must make time...must make time to do all these important things. *sigh* So, for tonight, I'm not going to think about any of it...I'm just going to relax and enjoy another night off. Let's hope that won't kill me tomorrow...Homework and Laundry. Oh, goody goody.

GL 7:52 PM