Homework for the Overactive Brain

Today's Quote--"Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me..."

Friday, October 18, 2002

 

"When we remember that we are all mad, the mysteries disappear and life stands explained."--Mark Twain
Ohmigod. Whew. I did it. I made those damn phone calls. Of course I'm still nervous because they have to call me back, but it's not as bad...I'm not initiating it. Maybe I should still go see that counselor. Or email her. Or something. Anyway. I feel much better now that I've made them, but still...Okay. I'm liking this cool, cloudy weather, but when the sun does come back I think I'll appreciate it for a little bit. Only a week until DJ comes! I'm getting more excited as it comes closer...though it does mean I've got a lot on my to-do list! This concert is going to be good, if I can just pull my head together enough to do stuff. Didn't go on my walk today either. A called and canceled, and me not liking to do stuff alone, decided not to walk too. So I slept instead. Although I was really groggy when I got up finally, I feel really good today, part of the reason I was able to make myself do those phone calls. Mom sent me a little package, or something, on Monday, but it's still not here, so I'm going to go check again before Japanese. This evening is going to be very long, but that's all right, I guess. Most of it is fun stuff anyway. I really like Ghungroo, I find myself looking forward to it all week, kind of like Buffy. I need to keep up my positive reinforcers, like watching movies, TV, and Ghungroo, listening to music, reading a good novel, writing, and stuff like that, to keep my depression level down...I do have a tendency to get down easily, I need to watch out for that I think. I have a lot of mood swings...
Okay. Off that subject. I've been spending way too much time thinking about my mental health lately. All a matter of 'medical student' syndrome, I guess. Had a conversation with Daito in Japanese today, I understood what he was saying, even though he was rambling with food in his mouth...;) That makes me feel good about my Japanese skills, though I'm still having a hard time forming my own sentences and speaking. Hope that I can develop that in the rest of this year. I've been thinking a lot about whats going to happen on my study abroad lately too. I'm getting a little anxious, but like all those other stressful things, I try not to dwell on it too much. I'm really looking forward to Scotland though! I can't wait! I hope Mom can come visit me in April, that'd be great, 'cause she's never been here after May 3rd, 2001, when no one was living here yet. I think she'd really like it here, which is kinda funny, I guess, because then she might want to visit me often...which'd be nice. *sigh* I miss home a lot, but one piece is comeing to visit me in a week so I can't complain! Okay, I'm going to get ready for class...maybe I'll write later about my other adventures today...maybe not. We'll see!

GL 2:05 PM