Homework for the Overactive Brain

Today's Quote--"Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me..."

Monday, May 10, 2004

 

Which is to say that I need both...and lucky me, at this moment, I have both. However, I'm missing my SA friends like crazy. The photo exhibit just opened and seeing everyone's smiling faces nearly made me cry, it was so good to see everyone. My SUA brothers and sisters. I realize now that they really are, because I love them the same way I would siblings.

I feel alone and isolated with so many of my classmates gone. Although Pooh-Bear and I are trying, it is hard without all of you. I too want to reminisce. I want to giggle and stay up too late talking about nonsense and good sense and enjoy your company again. Soon, I keep telling myself, but not soon enough. I feel a strange aloofness here that I've never had before, and it's only partly because I now have a life off campus. But then again, it's better aloofness then depression, which I think is nearly the only other route I could take. There are some Juniors who have jumped...well, right into bed, so's to speak, with the freshmen. They're just working so hard to make those connections. I don't want to make those connections...I want my old ones back.

Soon, Cassie, soon.

Well, at least A has a blog now that I can keep up to date with. And ED should be home by now...poor girl, I'm sure you're dying of homesickness for Costa Rica and yet being utterly confused by the joy of being home with your family. At least, that's how I felt. I just want to go back to Japan right now. If I got a second study abroad...I'd be so happy, especially if it were for about, oh, ten years!

Anyway, registration was today for us. Ed got me up when he left...okay, so we were up at about 4:30...registered at 8. Yeah for me, got to watch the sunrise, finish homework, do some very very overdue D's, and read some more of my fun book before registering. ;) I just don't plan on making it a habit. Yick. Yeah, so I got into the courses I needed/wanted except one...but it's okay if I don't get into that one, because if I did, I'd have 4 courses on TuTh starting from 8:30 until 4:30...if I don't get in I'll have a break from 1 to 3. Who cares about credits anyway?

As for all my friends in Japan...I agree, SUA is dumb. I love it, but when you're half a world away, it's stupid bureaucracy gets to be too much...i.e. "Bring this form by our department office by this Friday." Most of those words in bold and caps. Right...I'll just hop on a plane and fly 14 hours to get to LA, drive for another hour in traffic, drop off your stupid form, and do the whole thing again in reverse...before Friday. *shakes head* Yeah, dumb.

Anyway, I feel your pain. And I can see that you feel similarly about being away from me...I miss you all so much!

Stop thinking about it, dear, and focus on what you have...it's less depressing that way.

Point for Cassie today--I took constructive criticism and didn't even get the wobbly chin thing going. I was afraid it was going to come, but it didn't (thank goodness...or the D's). Hurray for challenging one's ability to deal positively with others.

So, I'm going to nap for a short while before looking at homework again. I can't believe only a week and a half of school left...and then packing. Ed'll graduate soon after. I'm hoping and praying he'll get that job in Spokane...half for my sake, half for his.

Right, feel myself slipping into Ed mode, so I'll sign off here and allow you all your sanity...;)

I miss everyone!!!!!

GL 1:01 PM