Homework for the Overactive Brain

Today's Quote--"Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me..."

Wednesday, March 10, 2004

 

Ain't it the truth? My body told me two days ago I was stressed. Today, the rest of me agreed. *sigh* It was very hard to get through the day, especially since I felt totally incompetent in both of my classes...especially Japanese. I'm learning a lot about linguistics, and no new Japanese. I feel...bleh.

Extreme stress moment...my card's dead. Won't open any doors. And no one around seems real helpful about it. Bastards. Grrr. Maybe tomorrow I'll get my new card...and have to pay $20 because there's this tiny little crack in my old card which counts as visible damage, even though it has absolutly nothing to do with why my card suddenly stopped working. Come on people, it's three years old, and after heavy usage, I would expect that there would be some cracks, dings, and other wear and tear. Hello? What about just giving us new cards every year? That would make this whole degredation thing less of a problem...ah, well, whatever. At first, I was pissed I would have to pay. Now I don't care. I would just like to be able to get into the printer room so I can do my homework...god damnit! "You have to go to an RHC to fill out a work request, after they've determined it's not just your door's battery going." That was the response I got...after I had already talked with an RHC (of which my dorm doesn't have one...and our office is only open at night...not conducive to me getting into my building during the day...not to mention I don't know the number). GERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. It just makes me mad...and has thrown my stress level over the top.

I think half my problem is sleep...not getting enough. But then, I don't spend much time doing homework either. This weekend we did our 36 page Pearl. Egads. And Ed was sick...poor guy. Only 2 more days of class before Spring Break, but I feel like it's an eternity...there are so many things I need to do, things that have no specific due dates, but that need to be taken care of...like SOCCO. Here I am, orchestra manager, getting paid to help BF out, and bleh. I don't do jack diddly. I need to change that. I need to chant more. Well, at least I finished my homework for tomorrow...ahead of time. And this hot weather...I can just see myself getting sick. Between the 80's here and the 50's at home and in NY...oy.

At least there are things in my life that make me happy. :D Even if my room looks like a disator zone, I haven't finished half my homework this week, and I've only gotten smatterings of sleep in the past few days...There's still a happy little spot. It's rather little at the moment, but still there.

Despite my little depression...I know it'll get better, my card will be replaced (who cares about spending $20? I need access), I'm getting back on track a little with my homework, I have wonderful understanding teachers, the Pearl is absolutly fabulous!, and I get to go on a fun little trip to New York with my parents next week. Okay, so maybe it'll just be more like a hetic crazy 4 day trip, but I'll get to see a bunch of people I haven't seen in a while...anywhere between 2 1/2 months and 11 years. Wow. Ah, family is a trip.

Speaking of family...is anyone else's biological clock ticking? *sigh* Professors shouldn't be allowed to bring cute babies on campus...just shouldn't be allowed. Of course...seeing a pregnant HKO twice a week is kinda like a constant reminder! Ah well, there is time enough in this life to do much...hmmm, where am I going? I'm beginning to feel some solid ground beneath all this slippery mud. Eventually, I may figure it out.

To my friends out there in the world...I love you. These challenges we're facing are painful, but eventually, the rewards will stare us down and slowly we'll begin to appreciate all of it. Not comforting now, but, even though we're all separated by thousands of miles...we're still supporting one another. Take care...I will see you soon.

GL 8:49 PM