Homework for the Overactive Brain

Today's Quote--"Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me..."

Tuesday, March 02, 2004

 

Today's Quote--"A life based on reason will always require to be balanced by an occasionaly bout of violent and irrational emotion, for the instinctual tribes must be satisfied."--Cyril Connolly

So, he gave me a good swift kick in the ass (which I desperatly needed), and a reminder that living in reality doesn't mean the end of dreams. My mind wants to discount everything positive as unrealistic, but now I can look and say to myself, 'wait a minute, no, there are some things in reality that are just as wonderful as any dream!' Yes, Ed is good for me. :) Mind, body, and soul. :D

Ah, forever I am the lucky child. The fortune baby. I will appreciate my life more. I will appreciate what goes on in it, and the people who make it all worth while (even the ones that piss me off), because to do otherwise would degrade everything I believe in. Are not all people Buddhas? Does not every person, and further, every living thing, have this potential that I value so much within my own life? If I allow myself to doubt them, do I not then begin to doubt myself? When you help another person, you help yourself tenfold. I will become stronger in my faith. I will become stronger in myself. I won't leave the encouraging up to others all of the time. I must be able to pull myself out of these holes I trip over. At least...right now, I know that there's someone walking with me, who can pull me in the right direction. Can I get any cheesier? Yes, so don't even touch that one! ;)

Moving forward, day by day, and realizing that dreams are the future of our reality. The pieces are coming back together, slowly. Reverse culture shock may never end, but I may begin to understand how to make myself work within this new framework.

I now have a small, but valuable reminder. Like walking around with a post-it note on your forehead, or a string around your finger. "Hey! Cassie! Remember, don't let the blues get you down! Remember, the future is not a desolate wasteland, it is the garden of Eden, and you get to choose your hiking paths. And, you don't have to fight the jungle alone."

Walking the paths and looking forward...rain always leads to sun, winter always turns to spring, and the confusion will change to dawning realization. Time...and time I have.

GL 3:16 PM