Homework for the Overactive Brain

Today's Quote--"Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me..."

Friday, January 23, 2004

 

I should really be doing something constructive, but my brain isn't wanting to start up. I've always loved this song. Friday nights are good, especially if there's a lot going on to be fun and entertaining...'cause sitting alone in your room and doing homework on Friday nights is just morally wrong. So I'm glad I don't have to do it. :D See? Yeah, writing an outline even seems beyond it this morning.

So I've been having all these really weird, intense dreams lately, maybe to make up for not having many in Japan...though I did. Last night...or this morning, actually, I dreamt that Bush was still at war (major war offensive, type thing, not this annoying standoff)...and he wanted to close all the schools. So there was this school out in the woods, and I'm both a student, a parent worrying about my daughter there, and an outside observer who can see into the future...yeah, weird. Anyway, he wants to close the schools, but parents don't want him to...so instead he won't let the kids leave. (Why Bush suddenly has so much power over schools, I dunno). And then the outside person sees that he's going to blow up the school. (Unconscious dislike of Bush coming out? Uh, maybe!). But someone might stop him. And the parents are all waiting outside the school, so the kids all run to get out and go to them...(yes, I'm both feeling like a parent and seeing like kids at this point...whew!) But the kids are all weak and scared of the sunlight because they've been sitting in the dark so long. (obscure reference to Plato's cave?) And then both of my alarms went off at the same time...It was chaos!

Right, so I know you probably don't care about my odd dreams, but that one just required me to tell it. Maybe I just don't want to go to my PoliSci Writing class and would rather be blown up...or something. Yeah, so crazy and scatter brained at the moment.

Oh yes, forgot, I didn't talk to ya'll yesterday. Herm, busy day. Got my two boxes from home...it was nice to finally have stuff that I've been missing (yeah, yeah, it's only been a week). And now I'm overflowing with TP. :D Anyway, went to the graduate school thing...yeah, should've started this campaign to figure out what I'm going to do about 6 months ago. *sigh* But oh well, I must make do with what time I have. So maybe I want to take a year off before going to grad school...and do...something. But I'm afraid to put it off because I don't know if I'll go if I do. Anyway, I only really need to go for any Psychology degree I might want. If I want to teach I need to head off to a teaching school...somewhere. I just don't know right now...and I don't want to make a huge, hasty descion. This is something that I need to think hard and carefully about...last night helped me realize that. So maybe taking a year off and doing...something...would be a good opportunity to do that thinking. I might have to, seeing all the things I have to do to finish an application...I'm already at the end of my Junior year! There's just not a whole lot of time...but then, if I leave SUA, it'll be hard to get things from profs and all. Oy. When I leave SUA I should say. It's inevitable. I don't like that!

Anyway, aside from my problems with the future...life is good. I feel like I can tackle all of this...eventually. Daimoku is a powerful thing, man. Speaking of which, I should go do that...and get dressed...and print out my bare-bones outline for class. Oy. It's hard to write good stuff when you have no motivation. Or even fake good stuff. I'd rather write the entire Pearl first. Bleh...and AnD, don't take that as an offer...;) Right, so I'll go be off and do.

Oh yeah...anyone want to walk a thousand miles for me? No? Yeah, sometimes, Eeyore finds himself alone in the 100 acre woods. But then again, it makes him all the happier when someone notices him.

"Thanks for noticing me."

GL 11:10 AM