Homework for the Overactive Brain

Today's Quote--"Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me..."

Sunday, February 09, 2003

 

Today's Quote--"To accept is easy; to continue is difficult."--Nichiren Daishonin
Yes, I've missed the past two days. Things here have been getting a little crazy. It is easy to accept the mission of being a pioneer, but to continue is very difficult. So. We've had our first student protest. And it got our Dean of Facutly changed. And our names out into newspapers for being biased against non-SGI member faculty. Which is false. A lot of emotions have been stirred up, a lot of confusion made. I feel as though there has been some serious manipulations of students by faculty, and I don't like it. I have no real opinion on the situation. I don't know enough facts, and all the emotions that have been dragged out of me relate to that. Frustration. Anger at those doing things with little or no information. Confusion as to what is really going on. Indignation at seeing my fellow students used. Etc. All conversations come back to it.

I've had some fun though. Went over to JG's house twice (even though he and JD weren't there) A was dogsitting. We played balderdash friday night and then did research on Scotland Sat night. Things are moving so quickly.

Anyway. There's not a lot to say. It's difficult to continue working as a pioneer when things seem so confused, scary, and painful. However, one must always remember that through difficulties we grow, through difficulties we become those outstanding people we want to be. This difficutly has shown me once again at the need for objectivity, the need for information, the need for trust, the need for thinking before acting. All are hard, but I know that I can develop more in each area. I can do it. I must do it, to protect my school, my friends, and my community. I will not allow this little experiment to fail, to fall, to disassemble itself from the inside. If there is something I can do to make it work, I will do it. No matter what! There is too much here of value to let it slip away.

GL 3:31 PM