Homework for the Overactive Brain

Today's Quote--"Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me..."

Saturday, October 19, 2002

 

Today's quote--"Most human beings have an absolute and infinite capacity for taking things for granted"--Aldous Huxley
Rehearsal today has done nothing to make me like people any more than I felt last night. ARGH. Sometimes I think it would be helpful to knock people over the head a few thousand times. All the emails and phone calls about this next concert...oy. But even worse...I feel like I'm surrounded by idiots sometimes. I guess they're trying their best, but sometimes it feels like they're not even thinking! I just want to wave my hand in front of their faces and, "HELLOOOO? Anybody home?" I'm just afraid there'd be no answer. *sigh* I'm just tired. I'm always tired. I need some space, some kind/friendly people time. Time to spend with friends and such, people who make me feel good about me and demand nothing more than what I want to give to them. I miss...so much. Time mostly, people as well, a few places too.
Doing laundry. Sometimes the simple things are the hardest to do. Some days I just want to curl up and stay in bed, not getting up for anything, and occasionally the desire is so strong that even the thought of not eating the entire day doesn't bother me. Today has the feel of one of those home stay days, pajama days is what I call them at home, here though, I have to put on clothes. And I had to go out and do my orchestra thing. Too bad I have homework to do. And no Mom to hang out with, doing nothing important...sewing, baking, sleeping, watching tv or movies, reading, any number of enjoyable quiet, and easy to do things. Days where my ability to get lost in a novel is all right. Yeah, I miss home a lot, today is one of those days that makes me think of it so fondly. My dad said to me the last time we talked, "whenever you come home, that's your time to rest. While you're at school you're working really hard, so when you come home here, you can just relax and not worry about anything." He's so sweet. Maybe that's one of the things I miss from home. My parents were always supportive, encouraging me to study, or kicking me in butt to get me going when I needed it, or taking care of me when I was sick, or so busy studying I forgot to eat. I love them a lot, and now I miss them so much too. Of course, now I appreciate them more too! Anyway, better go put my laundry in the dryer, and take a short nap. Maybe I'll write later, with more positive things to say, I hope!

GL 2:46 PM