Homework for the Overactive Brain

Today's Quote--"Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me..."

Sunday, October 20, 2002

 

My brain turned off. I felt the click. It turned off and then everything was fog, like when you take a really hot shower and the way the mirrors fog up. That was just about the strangest feeling, I just sat for a few minutes, staring at the wall, slackjawed. I shook myself and made myself move around, do stuff, call my parents, think, I even made a cup of tea to get my brain restarted. That was over an hour ago, I've been trying to placate it, thinking it might just be overworked, but I'm still feeling fuzzy. Normally, I wouldn't mind so much, but I've got a lot to do...(okay, normally this doesn't happen. Never mind that last statement, I don't know if I would mind it on a regular day, because today is a regular day, I've always got a ton of work to do.) I was working just fine for three or four hours, and then, 'click' off it went. I don't think I can do any more work...I'm going to look at my reading for Peace studies, but...And then! I was playing internet games (that placating I was talking about) trying not to think to heavily, and then there was this whooshing sound coming from my computer...I think it was a website I went to, but I left the site and the sound didn't go away until I exited explorer all together. It was kinda scary. The sound wasn't bad, it was like waves, but it just didn't mesh with my music. Oy. I've been reading too much psych. I've given up on walking. I like the time of morning and everything, but I don't want to do it by myself. I'll just have to get up early and go eat breakfast. I need to eat a good breakfast. I haven't the past few days, and that's bad. DJ's going to be here soon, I'm happy about that. Why is it, though, that I have these things to look forward to, DJ coming, going home for winter break, but those times are the most stressful, because of what I'm looking forward to!? This concert, finals, midterms, projects, papers, why is everything at the same time? I'll feel better I think after DJ leaves, not because he'll be gone (I'm gonna miss him even more I'm sure), but because all this s*** will be done with. For now. Oy. I hate stress. Sometimes I wonder if it's just me stressing myself out, or if I'm actually stressed out because of my workload, if that makes any sense. My brain has regained some functioning, I just hope it's enough to get me through a little more homework. Agh, I don't want to take care of all this reservation stuff...is this what orchestra managers have to deal with in a real orchestra? They have my absolute pity and sympathy if they do. I'm friends with the other staff of the orchestra, and the Soka people, but not really with anyone else...I think it's 'cause I have to be one of the hard asses about stuff all the time...clean up, turn in your music, don't forget to..., do this, do that, sorry, we can't do that for you...etc. Me and the concert mistress. Well, at least we get along great...:) I need to practice for this concert. *sigh* I'm going to stop thinking about it now. I have school stuff I need to be concerned with right now...like figuring out how to turn my brain on again. Oy. Well, here goes nothing...and if it doesn't work, I'm going to reboot, and go to bed.

GL 11:23 PM