Homework for the Overactive Brain

Today's Quote--"Happy birthday to me, Happy birthday to me..."

Wednesday, October 16, 2002

 

I am so glad I have friends, especialy sweet ones like Pooh, who'll take care of me when I need them. Ahh, well, obviously I managed to get to my site, view it, and make 3,000 changes or so. I think I'll stick with this template and not mess with any more HTML for a long time. I have so much junk left in my brain from the summer, from the beginning of this school year...I need to dump some of it. I'm getting tired though, it's late (okay, late for me, not for most college students...;) ), and I have yet another busy day tomorrow.
You know, I really miss home, but I just don't know what I'd do if I couldn't be close to my friends here...I love them a lot. I wonder if I'm too clingy though, I need to break away sometimes, give them their space, let them live there lives a little bit...sometimes I'm afraid I'm going to end up all alone though, which is dumb, I know, but I just miss them a lot whenever I can't spend some time with them...even if it's time when I'm begging for attention and no one will give it, it's nice to be in the presence of friends. Sometimes I get distressed that I don't have a particular person to call my 'best friend', other than my mother, but sometimes there are things that I feel like I can't talk to her about because she is my mother...not many things, but a few. All my 'best friends' have always seemed to turn up as super-shallow, or we just drift apart...except D. But he doesn't really count as 'best friend' material anymore, I mean, he's still one of my very best friends, but dating him means that our conversations have a different tilt...anyway, no matter how sensitive and wonderful, there's no guy who can really make up for a good girlfriend. *sigh* This train of thought always ends at the same destination, I need to get off now before it speeds up and I can't get off.
Okay, another day of business...another day of learning (we hope)...another day of working, talking, walking, reading, playing, eating, sleeping, and hopefully accomplishing something significant in all of that...Hey, the newspaper's coming out on Thursday! I wonder how it all came together...I hope we can keep that thing up too, wow...I sure do have a lot of activities! Buena Vista Social Club, Music 130, SOCCO, Ghungroo, Newspaper, Music TA, SGI, School work in general, pool sharks, flute, and this new possible job in psych...No wonder I'm zonked after a day's work!!!! Well, only 10 days until D. comes to visit me...Am I excited yet? Not enough. I hope I can get excited enough to warrent his efforts...*sigh* ...yet another subject I need to think hard about, to myself...
All righty. Brain, you've successfully finished your first homework assignment. You are excused from class, you may go home and take a short break. I'll call you up again tomorrow...I hope!

GL 12:10 AM